deep sigh

and the second one down as well!
i said a little prayer to the half moon before i got into the theater. thank you, moon.

this time i had a familiar audience - nuli, ben, natalie, our new friend gena -
really great to have their support. i was also nervous in a different way than last time. i had more time to practice and perfect things, and really was able to use the nervous energy in the piece. i moved around more during the monologue part and added fun things into the dance routine. i just watched the video of it on my camera (twice) and of course have a really critical eye. i want to work on my acting skills, really practice the impersonation of my dad so it gets better, be more in my body and more present, focus on the breath - which i seemed to forget to do. its a practice, like anything else. might be good to resume carol's class and just work on monologue stuff.
but all in all, as self-critical as i am, everyone seemed to enjoy it. i even had a stranger compliment me and ask if i wanted to work with him on a project. we'll see what that's about...

deep sighs of relief and pleasure. putting the inner critic away for now and let myself delight in the glory of just having had put myself out there.

1 show down

i did it!
was reviewing lines until the very last minute. got a few chuckles from the audience, felt good just to get it out there. and now i feel comfortable and have a base to work with. i think i can be more present, which will make it more honest.

its truly amazing how this whole process works. its really only by doing it, performing, that you can get anywhere. the audience is everything, in a way.

i didn't have anyone i know in the audience, which is good for a first run through. i spoke to a guy afterwards who was a friend of another performer friend and he gave me some feedback which was great. he said it worked overall and the parts about my dad were hilarious and tied in well. i should've asked him more about what didn't work, but oh well. tomorrow will be a new experiment!

i want to add in:
singing/lip-syncing to the song & dance part
maybe some movement to the monologue?
my hula hoop

theres a group of people coming to see me tomorrow, which makes me nervous and excited.
woo hoo!!!