magicians

magicians in my life seem to be a theme.

a google alert yesterday brought me to the website of Jimmy Grippo - a magician, hypnotist, and heavy weight boxing trainer...

it's funny, because weeks ago when I met with the random theater/producer guy, he asked me if I was related to Jimmy Grippo. he knew of him in the context of being a boxing trainer.

now that i know more about him, who knows? i might actually be related.

alchemy

started 2 new workshops - both changing my life.
isn't that what this is all about?

alchemy.

i chose the alchemist card in an archetype exercise we were doing in Victoria's workshop.
in Heather's workshop, i met a man in class who i was so instantly drawn to, i don't know what to make of it yet. my work in the class is evolving into themes of the moon, the ocean, my period.

have to come up with 30-60 seconds of material for Victoria's class. not sure what to do yet.

thinking about sex a lot these days, especially in relationship to spirituality and healing.
sacred prostitution, courtesans...
talking about alchemy, i realized that in addition to The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho also wrote 11 Minutes which is one of my absolute favorite books - about a prostitute named Maria and her journey into finding love. i'll never forget the scene where she has a spontaneous orgasm just standing in the street.

i want to read that book again.

dirty dancing

watched it again for the first time in years.
sobbed, cried, hard, hysterically. throughout the whole second half plus an extra hour afterwards.

amazing.

that "johnny castle" character.

i need to get a pair of keds and waist high jeans for the summer.

i feel like Baby.

i want to write a modern rendition of it.

it hit me...

on the subway this morning, i think i discovered a link between my life experiences and the material i've been thinking about including in a longer show:

my commitment issues have led me to seek out a path that is all my own.
and i can inspire others to do the same.

not wanting to settle or box myself into anything:
ballet was too restrictive
couldn't decide on college major (chose individualized study instead)
holistic health counseling
different kinds of men, most of whom have their own commitment issues
seeking help from: psychics, tarot, etc.
aunt marianne as an inspiration

fear of being alone and the search to connect to others is also in there

and my one-woman show is another reflection of that all.

hmmm.